I'm hurt

I'm hurt and I'm refusing to say it aloud. I hate how I let people let me down and push me aside. I know I'm important...I guess maybe not to some people. I'm tired of being the one to call and text and invite. If not even that, being ignored tops it all off with a cherry! I hate getting no answers back or having my efforts just put aside. I feel like a total loser doing that. So, in the past month or so, I've decided to just stop. If I'm important then I would see a different outcome. I guess I'm saying I'm done. I'm done trying with everyone. Screw this crap.

I need a friend right now, a friend to talk to and help me. I look to my left...then to my right...even up in the air. I find none. How sad. =/
I guess even when family has ups and downs, they are the only ones that prove to be there forever. I should've realized this long ago.