Fresh air

Yesterday was so weird. If you read my debbie downer blogs, I assume you saw that I was looking at life kinda negative.

Ironically, the rain did stop shortly after I wrote the last blog. Actually...it stopped as soon as I submitted it. haha
So, I went across the street & sat on a bench (even though it was wet) and just soaked in that little sense of freedom I was feeling in that moment. I didn't have anyone breathing down my neck asking questions or nagging on me about money or anything. I was alone (in one sense) and it felt very good.
I started a conversation with God. He just listened most of the time though. I think that's what I needed. I talked to Him about all the emotions I was feeling (even though he already knew each one) and I told Him things I was even a little embarrassed to tell Him. He didn't smack me on the hand or scold me...He just listened. & then He said something that made all my anxiousness disappear...."Just trust Me."

I guess maybe in that moment I forgot or failed to notice that I wasn't trusting God. I want what's not in it's time & and I wanted it badly. He's teaching me to be patient and accept that He is still ALWAYS good...even when I don't get what I want. Today's a new day...and I'm going to breath in the fresh air He's blowing my way. I'm going to be grateful even when I find it hard.