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Today in my human sexuality class we talked about LOVE.
It was a very interesting topic....but at the end the class I realized something.
As my teacher was talking about relationships and love, I felt like I was in counseling.
I mean, afterall it is a psychology course, but we talk about things like if we're in one of those sessions. (not that i've ever been in one. haha)
We took a test that was supposed to tell us what type of love we give to people.
-storage love: life long best friends
-agape love: partner centered
-mania love: intense feelings
-pragma love: practical
-ludus love: playful conquest
-eros love: romantic

so i took the test, and the results made me laugh.
I had almost 3 that tied. Storage and agape tied at 6 points, and mania had 7 points. eros and pragma had 4 points. hahhaha.

mania...that's funny. I mean i guess it's not that bad, but just the sound of it...makes me think i'm a little crazy. The other two were off by only 1 point, so i'm assuming i have a good mixture of all 3 types of love. The questions were kinda broad too, so....yeah.



I can't seem to get away from it. This whole love thing. It's all around me. In class, in books i reads, in movies. Pretty much everywhere. Makes me want to be in a relationship, but the more I'm learning about love, the more I realize I have a lot of growing up to do. Several attempts at other relationships have failed bc I failed to realize that i was immature when it came to relationships, period. I want to love with a love that God has, but I need him to perfect that idea more inside of me...which obviously means I need more of Him. I like that idea. I mean, don't get me wrong, I understand that learning this can span out in my whole lifetime, but I do believe there will be a point where I'm ready to take on a relationship bc I've come to a point that God needed me to be. Is that now? I don't know...maybe. If not now, I feel soon.
I feel a lot more mature this time around. I understand my failures and why I was the way I was, and I'm walking away from that learning so much. Things will be different the next time around...I'm almost sure of it. I lost a lot of fears that I had...and a lot of insecurities. I feel more confident and secure about my future.
Love does make us silly though. Especially for us girls. We do things we shouldn't and act ways we shouldn't on impulse and then later find ourselves saying "oh shit, did I just do that?" haha

Anyways. This was a nice talk. Catch you on the flip side friend. :)