Apples, bananas and starburst.

It's been a while since I've written to the imaginary people who read this lame excuse for a blog. :)
I felt the urge to...so here I am.
Actually, I've been having several urges recently. Some are odd. I did one tonight. Felt good. I didn't feel bad either. It wasn't wrong, but it's just something I don't usually do.
I'm planning on doing again....don't really care what anyone says.

This week i've been feeling very free.
I don't know how to explain this sense of freedom, but I really like it.
I feel like a spirit of religion fell off of me. I wasn't even aware that it was there...but I guess so. It wasn't too bad, but still kept me with boundaries. I like being free. It feels good.



I don't even think this blog has a point. I just felt like rambling. ....


I got this new sense of confidence recently. Praise God. It feels pretty cool.
I think I tired of caring what everyone thinks. They can go suck lemons if they don't like me or things I do. God loves me, and I feel confident in Him. I've been walking around with my head higher than usual.
I had started feeling insecure about a past relationship....thinking/questioning/regretting a lot. BUT...I sat down and looked at the situation for what it was. I'm actually not missing out on anything. I'm so much different than them....and i think that's a good thing. If settling is what people want...then let them. I deserve so much better. & what I thought i wanted once in life....doesn't look like it's going to happen anytime soon. So, I've given up on it. I want God to take control of my life....it's what He promised, so trusting Him seems the best thing to do.




I noticed today that Bon is one of the few people that I be with for hours after hours, and we always have something to talk about. I like it. It's unusual. She never bores me, and she gives "the world's best back massages ever." or so she says ;)
i like her...shhhh. don't tell her =p



Sylvia Bon and I leave for IHOP in like 21 days! That's something to be most definitely stoked about. & I am. After that, all I have left is like 4 months.
Then I graduate...and move out of this insanely insane town. The people here are so weird. I don't belong.
I think my next stop is San Antonio. yeah. sounds good.
It could be nice to meet new people.
Nice to start new...again.
I need it.
Too many things i need to leave behind here....and I can't wait.



Ok. Goodnight. I should sleep. :)