Fear

Fear Sucks.
I hear the thoughts rattle in my brain....ever so softly. You know, just enough to get the thought across but not loud enough to startle me and make itself known.
Stupid. However soft they are, I hear them. I am warned. I am alert.

I'm learning to trust God so much. I know that my past does not dictate my future. Thank HIM for that!
Although these fears want to haunt me, I keep holding on to the promise that whenever I'm in HIS presence, ALL fear is gone. So...I stay there. I keep pressing in. Keep holding tight.

It's all over. You see, even though I went through so much heartache with one fool (yes, FOOL) lol, does not mean that everyone else will follow that example. Not everyone else is out to hurt me. For once I finally understand that.

Even though faces from the past still exist...I'm trusting God. There has to be someone there that really means what they say...really means what they feel. Not everyone talks out of their butt. lol. Thank God.
Then again, God totally being the center of this changes everything this time around. There's so much peace when He's in control.

I wish it wasn't so complicated though. I wish I could trust certain people. I wish they would smarten up and realize that the world isn't about them.
Maybe one day....maybe one day they'll see. In Jesus Name, they WILL see!