It's just me and You....

It's just me and You God. Just me and You.
I'm sorry it took so long for me to do this...
but I guess it's better late than never.
I know that You've been preparing my heart for this for some time now..
thank You for that.
Thank You for not allowing certain people to give up on me...I know that in their shoes it could have been so tempting.
I'm amazed sometimes at how my stubbornness never pushed them away....

I want more of You God.
I need more of You.
Show me what else You want...bc I'll do it. With all of my heart...I am Yours. & You are mine.
Thank You that Your love satisfies...beyond any earthly love.
Teach me how to have a love relationship with You....teach me what it means to love.

I know this is just the beginning..... <333

Fear

Fear Sucks.
I hear the thoughts rattle in my brain....ever so softly. You know, just enough to get the thought across but not loud enough to startle me and make itself known.
Stupid. However soft they are, I hear them. I am warned. I am alert.

I'm learning to trust God so much. I know that my past does not dictate my future. Thank HIM for that!
Although these fears want to haunt me, I keep holding on to the promise that whenever I'm in HIS presence, ALL fear is gone. So...I stay there. I keep pressing in. Keep holding tight.

It's all over. You see, even though I went through so much heartache with one fool (yes, FOOL) lol, does not mean that everyone else will follow that example. Not everyone else is out to hurt me. For once I finally understand that.

Even though faces from the past still exist...I'm trusting God. There has to be someone there that really means what they say...really means what they feel. Not everyone talks out of their butt. lol. Thank God.
Then again, God totally being the center of this changes everything this time around. There's so much peace when He's in control.

I wish it wasn't so complicated though. I wish I could trust certain people. I wish they would smarten up and realize that the world isn't about them.
Maybe one day....maybe one day they'll see. In Jesus Name, they WILL see!

Holy Revolution...

I love being weird.

like not in a weird weird way.

just weird.

Realizing that I'm different...for God...is pretty amazing.

I find value in my life.

I know He made me unique.

& even if no one understands me...that's perfectly ok.

I love the way that God uses each person very differently.

Maybe to all recieve something that falls along the same lines...but nonetheless...it's differently.

It's the way that the body works together so perfectly. It amazes me.

Even though receiving what I receive seems crazy sometimes, I'm always excited to hear the way that the Lord speaks to the people around me.

There's a Holy revolution...in my veins.

I can feel this movement of God so strongly. I don't think I've ever felt Him like this before. It's so different. but good different. Ok i take that back...it's not a good different...it's an amazing different.

"pick up your spiritual belongings and march it out. There's no time left"

dang. IT's approaching soon. I can feel it in my veins. Seriously.
I've been having moments where I swear i'm walking around and expecting any moment to get knocked out by Him. He's all around me. Everywhere I turn. Everything I think. Everything I am. I love it.

Be prepared.
the best advice i can give....just be prepared. =D